barbwirefloss: I have been lying to my parents, family, girlfriend, and friends for the past few months. I haven’t been doing any of my work in college, and I’m going to fail all of my classes.
It’s gotten to the point that I don’t go to any of my classes anymore and just sleep through the whole day and stay up all night.
I felt like a huge dumbass for putting all of this on myself, and in a way, I beat myself up for it. I knew this would happen, and I knew the consequences of my actions, but in all honesty, I didn’t care.
I’m getting “financial aid” from my parents to go to this college, and they told me at the end of last semester that if I didn’t clean up my act, I wouldn’t be returning.
I understand their concerns since I know college isn’t the cheapest thing in the world, and I don’t even know if I want to study the area I originally applied for.
Heck, I don’t know what I want to do. I have a passion for things I don’t think I can make a career out of or can’t do well enough to do so.
I hate going to school and trying to act like I care about what’s going on or that I’ll actually do the homework or tests. I used to love school and learning, and now it’s like a poison.
I’ve been lying to my friends, saying I’ll be able to room with them next semester, but I know I’m going to get expelled because I’m already on academic probation and I’m failing all of my classes. Everyone is really stressed about finals, but I’m not going to show up to any of mine.