gayslugmaster69: This secret is a bad one. When I was 15 and incredibly lonely, one summer I decided to make an OkCupid account. It’s a dating website for people 18+. I looked probably about 17 at the time but I guess I could pass for 18. So I said I was 18 on my account. I got a lot of responses from guys instantly.
There was this one that stood out to me, his name was James. He was a 22-year-old college student working at Tim Hortons, but I at 15 thought he was the most intelligent and beautiful person I’d ever met.
We talked for three months and then he turned 23. Now the age gap was 8 years. After those three summer months of staying up all night, we decided to meet up in person. It was Labor Day weekend when we met up.
He picked me up from a gas station and drove me to his house (we lived 3hrs away and I told him that my car didn’t work but I only had my permit and no car.) I honestly think I fell in love with him and we hit it off completely.
He was really attractive and different from guys my age. Guys my age would make fun of how I looked because they were insecure themselves and teased me a lot when they were interested in me, which just confused me. But James would compliment me and joke with me but never made me feel insecure.
I really loved him, but when the relationship progressed he was talking about sleeping with me and I told him that I was a virgin which he was okay with. But after I turned 16 I realized that he was a 23-year-old man who could get in a lot of trouble if he was to sleep with me.
I never told him my age because I knew he’d be disgusted with himself so I just cut all ties with him all day. I figured it was selfish to keep him around. He needed somebody who could be 100% honest with him.
So in March I basically blocked him on all social media and my phone (he didn’t know where I lived) and I never saw or spoke to him again. It’s been 2 years but I sometimes stalk him on Facebook. He’s engaged now and graduated college. I’m so happy that everything is going well for him. I’m only 18 now but I hope one day I’ll find a guy who is as great as James.